Hello you are wonderful thank you for hosting this :) (here via staranise who is ALSO wonderful yes)
Soooo. Basically my plan for the rest of the year (and then we'll see) is to not be having a good week, because that is the only option I can see at this point. Because work is made of stupid, and everything has been coming out of the coding-pipeline late-and-broken, so of course it's our job to get everything back on schedule, right? (Oh wait you wanted to take any time off in the entire last quarter including during the holidays? too bad!)
Into which I have really no idea how to insert the trip-to-see-extended-family for which my dad already bought plane tickets and my boss already rejected my PTO request... plus jury summons for mid-month... plus the umpteen-billion appointments I need to make for me/cat/car. Because, yknow, of course I will be more productive when stressed about how the end of the year is going to go and how much trouble I'm going to be in for it. That is of course how it works. Yes.
Which, of course, only thing I need on top of that is more axes of what-am-I-doing-with-my-life, right? Because the SO is a lovely human, and I would very much like to keep them, except they live halfway across the world (and they would like to move to a DIFFERENT halfway across the world, that I am possibly if anything even less thrilled with) and I am pretty dang attached to my family born-and-chosen here (and they do not really want to move back), and there are A Couple Things that I don't actually know if I can live with... and so the logical thing would be call it a loss and move on but I don't wanna? But also distance SUCKS especially with so much time difference, and thanks to previous Internet Relationship they're twitchy about Scheduling Computer Time >.< Also, having well-meaning friends (friend, mostly) telling me this all sounds like a bad idea is tiring. I know it doesn't logic. Really the question is whether the adventure would be worth it. And that is really hard to tell ahead of time... (also MOVING ACROSS THE WORLD I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO DO THE THING)
Also, gatekeepers of medicalthings, ARGH. Dealing with workerscomp at this point has just about gotten dull... at some point will likely do what they want and give up on Having The Things Not Hurt... but in the meantime it is in the pleasant state of not being something I am having to make phonecalls about for at LEAST a few more weeks. But, so, winter is hard, and looking back at the last few, okay, there are always reasons but at the same time the winters are harder. And I had an additional person suggest checking vitD levels at me, so... okay, let's see about that... So there is supposed to be this handy feature by which I can email my doctor. But it is not a useful handy feature if the answer is "come in and talk to me and we'll see", basically. YES I HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD I WOULD LOVE TO. (I mean, to be fair, they have not met my face yet, but that means fitting in an office visit AND labwork not to mention I hate scheduling appointments. Therefore argh.)
Also my kitchen is gross and apparently I am the one less-able to let it just be that way at the moment.
...buuuuuut at least I am having fun experimenting with things in hot chocolate? That part is a happy thing. So is shoulder only hurting a lot of the time instead of all the time. Would really like Not Ever, or even Hardly Ever... not sure if I get to have those eventually or not (not while I'm working this job, I suspect).
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Date: 2014-11-22 08:19 am (UTC)Soooo. Basically my plan for the rest of the year (and then we'll see) is to not be having a good week, because that is the only option I can see at this point. Because work is made of stupid, and everything has been coming out of the coding-pipeline late-and-broken, so of course it's our job to get everything back on schedule, right? (Oh wait you wanted to take any time off in the entire last quarter including during the holidays? too bad!)
Into which I have really no idea how to insert the trip-to-see-extended-family for which my dad already bought plane tickets and my boss already rejected my PTO request... plus jury summons for mid-month... plus the umpteen-billion appointments I need to make for me/cat/car. Because, yknow, of course I will be more productive when stressed about how the end of the year is going to go and how much trouble I'm going to be in for it. That is of course how it works. Yes.
Which, of course, only thing I need on top of that is more axes of what-am-I-doing-with-my-life, right? Because the SO is a lovely human, and I would very much like to keep them, except they live halfway across the world (and they would like to move to a DIFFERENT halfway across the world, that I am possibly if anything even less thrilled with) and I am pretty dang attached to my family born-and-chosen here (and they do not really want to move back), and there are A Couple Things that I don't actually know if I can live with... and so the logical thing would be call it a loss and move on but I don't wanna? But also distance SUCKS especially with so much time difference, and thanks to previous Internet Relationship they're twitchy about Scheduling Computer Time >.< Also, having well-meaning friends (friend, mostly) telling me this all sounds like a bad idea is tiring. I know it doesn't logic. Really the question is whether the adventure would be worth it. And that is really hard to tell ahead of time... (also MOVING ACROSS THE WORLD I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO DO THE THING)
Also, gatekeepers of medicalthings, ARGH. Dealing with workerscomp at this point has just about gotten dull... at some point will likely do what they want and give up on Having The Things Not Hurt... but in the meantime it is in the pleasant state of not being something I am having to make phonecalls about for at LEAST a few more weeks. But, so, winter is hard, and looking back at the last few, okay, there are always reasons but at the same time the winters are harder. And I had an additional person suggest checking vitD levels at me, so... okay, let's see about that... So there is supposed to be this handy feature by which I can email my doctor. But it is not a useful handy feature if the answer is "come in and talk to me and we'll see", basically. YES I HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD I WOULD LOVE TO. (I mean, to be fair, they have not met my face yet, but that means fitting in an office visit AND labwork not to mention I hate scheduling appointments. Therefore argh.)
Also my kitchen is gross and apparently I am the one less-able to let it just be that way at the moment.
...buuuuuut at least I am having fun experimenting with things in hot chocolate? That part is a happy thing. So is shoulder only hurting a lot of the time instead of all the time. Would really like Not Ever, or even Hardly Ever... not sure if I get to have those eventually or not (not while I'm working this job, I suspect).